This ain't my first rodeo.

Don't ask me why I still can't stay on a mechanical bull, though.

"Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple." 1 Corinthians 3:16-17

Hey y'all! I'm baaack! *Cam Newton voice*

Yes, I've disappeared for a little (ironically, when some of my best content would have been featured!).

A few updates since we last spoke:

• I turned 31 last month and my husband, Quentin, went all out for me!

• Husband and I moved into our official first place together (I moved into his apartment!). God has blessed us with a beautiful 3 bedroom apartment - where I get my own room!

• I got to meet Tabitha Brown (Auntie Tab, in my head!) a few weeks ago!! I've mentioned my love for her before - you KNOW I was hype!

Ok, so that's a brief little catch up - now to the post (which, honestly, I don't know which way God will lead me with...)

Today, I went to Alana's 1st grade class presentation (my baby sister)! She was so proud to show my mom, grandma, and I the book that she had written about frogs. Apparently, she researched, wrote, anddd beautifully illustrated the book! (Not bad for a 1st grader!)

All I could think about was just how fast time has flown - one day I'm playing peek-a-boo with a 1 year old and the next, I'm watching a sassy, sweet, funny little girl go to the 2nd grade.

Lord, please let time stay still!

Later that day, I took a trip to Winston-Salem State University to be interviewed on their school radio station. I've done at least 2 interviews with the host before and each went well. I'm usually on "go" when it comes to doing radio & TV interviews...but today was an "off" day.

I felt unprepared to answer questions that were asked...

I felt myself stumbling over my words and getting anxious...

For whatever reason, the interview being recorded on Facebook Live made me more nervous....

What was going on with me?!

Long story short, this wasn't my best radio interview. As I walked back to my car, of course, the defeating thoughts start to autoplay in my head: "That wasn't very good" "You're not as good at this as you think..."

I tried to counter each of them with the knowledge that God can literally use any word from me to bring children closer to families. That helped...mostly.

I don't know if I've mentioned this before but, over 50 posts in, I've been hesitant to share Blessed Girl Problems with others -

1. It can be a bit of a vulnerable space for me.

2. Fear..mainly of failure.

Truth is, this isn't my first rodeo with beginning a social media platform. I've started several online platforms, including: a YouTube channel AbsolutelyAESHA (https://youtube.com/absolutelyaesha), a few different blogs, including ZodioStyle (https://zodiostyle.blogspot.com) and My Life in Yellow (https://the-yellow-life.blogspot.com), a Ustream channel, etc.

I started each of these platforms but, for whatever reason, I was never really consistent. My audience didn't really grow. I felt like I was always just trying to "scheme" different ways to get people to just pay attention and enjoy the content that I'd worked so hard to create.

Not only that, much of the content on Blessed Girl Problems has to do with my faith in God. Admittedly, a piece of me feels like "who am I to be able to discuss the Bible, God's love, and encourage other people through scripture?!" I'm not a preacher. I can't quote every scripture. There's still things about God that I'm still trying to understand myself!

I've always had a strong desire to create a community, which maybe is a piece of what draws me to social media. I've attempted several times to start one and it often triggers "grade school" insecurities within me:

No one reads the post - maybe, I'm just not that cool...

No one subscribes - why don't they want to be my friend?!

All of that to say...I still feel lead to see this blog through.

I don't know who will read...or what everyone will think...but I do know that this blog has truly blessed some readers. Truth be told, one of those readers it's blessed...is me.

Today, I was feeling a little "blah"and I read my post "If only He knew...". It truly blessed me and I felt a weight lift off me from taking it in.

I thought "this is too good for me not to share"...

So, I pressed the share button.

My mom happened to see the link and take a look at my blog:

It meant the world to hear that it blessed her too. I was already thinking that I should get back blogging, but her words were just what I needed to keep going.

Ooooh God, I thank you!